Monday, October 18, 2010

Housing and jobs.

I just spent a ridiculous amount of time on craigslist looking up the general market for jobs in the area and housing.  It wasn't really that long, but it was longer than I wanted it to be because absolutely nothing came from that action but a feeling of despair.  I even went as far as looking in San Marcos and Austin just to see what those markets looked like: all things I can't do or can't afford.  The housing was more for fun, I see myself doomed to cramped and awkward living arrangements on-campus for the rest of my natural life (which I highly doubt will extend further than the next year at this rate).  A job I really need, and have the ability to hold and acquire blah blah, but what irritated me most was the attitutde towards these jobs.  The employers were offering sub-standard jobs, jobs obviously people don't really want or else they wouldn't have to resort to craigslist.  So, they're offering these jobs and they have all of these requirements or qualifications; it seems even if you want to clean toilets today, you're gonna need at least four years of higher level education (which means four years of debt for most of us)- to clean toilets!!  It's heart-wrenching to see someone so determined to survive and sorry for past mistakes that can't realistically be corrected now, trying to get a job and be fired because, "you're not learning fast enough."  Which could be anything, really.  You could have fired me because I don't fit in with the likes of you.  But, your lack of education, and apparent lack of knowledge allowed me an easy alternative to a reason for getting rid of you.  I'm here at school to make sure no one can tell me this, but while I've been here, I've found that I'm not exactly succeeding at a rate neccesary to overcome all of those odds thrown in my face on a daily basis.  Who am I kidding? I barely am doing enough to technically be considered in school.  And now that I see how adament employers are about education, I see I have no hope of being any kind of "successful" person without it.  I want a house, a home to share with my loved ones.  According to Craigslist, I can't even afford rent if i have a minimum, or even slightly above minimum, wage job. 
So what is a girl LIKE ME to do?
How do I overcome this?
If anyone says 'That's Life' or 'Just get used to it, Just do it' I'll pull my hair out.  All of it.

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